Confession time - I have a really hard time asking for help. Even when I desperately need it. I'm actually known for scaling the shelves in grocery stores in order to get something off of the top shelf instead of simply asking the person next to me. And while the old joke goes that men won't stop and ask for directions, neither will I. I was once lost in Buffalo, NY for six hours - six hours - on the verge of tears but I still refused to ask how to get on the right road back home.
But as I've got older I've realized that my lack of asking other people for help can actually seep, or flood, into my spiritual life. If I can't ask other people to help me with small things, how willing am I actually going to be to ask for God's help with big things?
At its root, I don't know what stops me from asking other people for help when I need it. Pride? Disillusionment? My guess is whatever stops me from asking people for help, is the same thing that keeps me from bringing all of my needs and requests before God. That feeling that this particular request doesn't matter to God in the scheme of things or I can handle that need on my own. In my head I know God wants me to bring all of my requests before the Throne of Grace, but something in my heart stops me from doing it. Its an every waged spiritual struggle for me, but I know I have to trust God and set myself aside, and bring my heart before that Throne.
Do you struggle with giving your needs to God? What blocks you from asking God for help in all circumstances?
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